Question by killurkellbell: y cant i end my nonstop 12yr drug habit?
at 5am this morning,a week and1/2 shy of my 26th birthday,i sit and wonder for the god-only-knows-how-many-times…why?i finally have found the only closest thing ive ever known to a consistant,stable,somewhat peaceful by comparison life,i have family love and support ive never known before,brand new car,a house ive lived in long enuf to see a tree grow{over a year}4 cats,a dog,faith in god and some self esteem.why do i still feel the unending desire to self-sabatage the life ive worked so hard to achieve with a bag of white stuff that will eventually render me toothless by 30,brainless by 35,ugly and looking 60 by only 40,a 2time loser by 45,and finally{peacefully no doubt}DEAD by fifty,if im lucky enuf for the personal hell to ever end.my luck i’ll live to be 113…does anyone feel me?can anyone be as real with me,i’ll take anything…    Read more...